let me break.

i don't know what to say. maybe i'm speechless. or maybe i'm too confused to say anything. i don't know what to say or do. so maybe i'll just keep quiet. because i was told that silence is golden.

i'm tired and lazy. and i'm lost. maybe i just can't bothered. and i don't want to stay at home. i want to get out of the house. any where but here. my earstick can't go into my cartilidge. and its damn shit assed pain. its almost in. i want to go for st anne's feast day. but there is no one to go there with me. boohoo! i just don't want to stay home.

i've got so much of things going on in my head. too much. i can't seem to organise my thoughts. i can't blog. i can't write. i haven't written in my book in a really long time either. i'm getting rusty in writing. and everything else. i can't get my thoughts straight. i'm really lost and confused. i don't know.

thank you sean for the chocolates. even though i don't know if you stole it or bought it. but thanks anyway. i never tried that flavour before. whee! it cheered me up from a horrible day. thank you. and i'm sorry that i couldn't give you what you asked for. horrible timing? i guess. next time. i told you to take the initiative to ask for it right? hmmm. next week i guess.

i think i shall continue eating chips with mayo. and vomit or something. then i shall be off to sleep.

goodnight world.
i'll miss YOU all.